Thursday, October 16, 2014

Dramatic Social Change


There are so many situations going on in this book that I could talk about, but I don't know If I can sit here and write about all of them. Especially when I have this one very specific thing that just makes me want to scream. Obviously, this will probably have something to do with love (probably the most common theme of my blog). 

The Age Of Innocence by Edith Wharton is great. Everyone read it and get frustrated. Please. Unlike the previous book I read, I felt that this one was rather easier to read. I felt anger reading this. If I would have gotten a copy of it and not online version, It would have been chucked against the wall!!! Newland Archer, Countess Ellen Olenska and May Welland.... WHY. Such anger for situations like these.

Basically, to make the story short, this was a typical love triangle set up in Old New York, with it's high class and ever changing social values. Archer and Welland were to be married, but once Olenska came in the picture(Wellands cousin), they fell in love. What. Okay. So, this practically screams forbidden love. So happy that it didn't end up like Romeo & Juliet. Situations like these are so frustrating. Archer was satisfied with Welland, she was enough to keep him content. Yet, when he met Olenska, she was everything. They were in love, but they couldn't be together. 


The way things played out, I couldn't blame Archer for wanting to be with the Countess. The countess was freedom, while Welland was conditioned and practically unable to think on her own. It's like living with a robot. Apply this to actual life and well.. It's really upsetting. To think that people do marry the wrong person and then meet the "one." How does someone deal with that.

This was a short rant. It was meant to be longer, but I can't just repeat myself over and over again. Something that was really upsetting was the ending. Archer didn't visit the countess and said he was content with the memories. He came to peace with it all. That was both upsetting and relieving 

Monday, October 13, 2014

You're Always Alone Because You Choose To Be

This is my first time giving Charles Bukowski a chance. Always heard of him, but I just never got around to reading his work. It wasn't easy picking a poem. Some of his poems frustrated me so much that I refused to keep on reading. Some just didn't really make me feel anything. Poetry is supposed to make the reader feel something and if it doesn't ... What now?

Bukowski did a good job in naming his poems. It was how I ended up selecting this one anyways. Alone with everybody. It's quite intriguing really. I wanted to know more. I wanted to know what he meant and why. My first impression was that it would be about how it doesn't matter how many people you're with or around if you still feel alone. You'd think that having company would make one feel whole, but really, that's not the case. Instead you just feel empty. Bukowski hits where it hurts.

After I read the poem, I realized how depressing it is. How depressing life can be if you let it. How depressing life can be if you're truly alone. "The flesh covers the bone and they put a mind in there and sometimes a soul," this made me think of a few things. In the end we really are just flesh and bones. We all have minds that over complicate things and we're our own obstacles. I don't even know what to make of the soul part. Or maybe I do. Maybe the people with souls are the honest, truthful, loyal ones. While the ones without cheat and play with peoples feelings ? I don't even know what i'm saying right now. I picked this part to talk about because he mentions it later on in the poem, "flesh covers the bone and the flesh searches for more than flesh," this is something big. It's something real too. While people are influenced by beauty, physical connections aren't strong, while actually mental connections, bonding... If you're lucky it'll last a life time. 

He mentions hysterical women and alcoholic men. Which isn't such an odd picture. You don't find the one and one always drowns their sorrows in violence and drinks. At least, that's what's most common. Person after person and be after bed. One hopes to find love, but it's all lust. Lust, lusting after people thinking it's meant to be but it isn't. Think of it this way. "You think you're in love, but really you wanna be loved." I'm just going to leave that right there. 


Firm believer in fate and what not, but we have the power to change how we get to out destiny. So, it's not all written in the stars. Not everyone has the same fate (unless death is the topic of discussion). This seems like a sad way to have lived. "Nobody ever finds the one," what if the one isn't even an actual thing? What if it's actually about two people wanting to be together and wanting to make it work? Everything is immensely temporary. So, yes, you will be empty, but you will will also be filled. Maybe Bukowski spent too much timing trying to find the right person instead of trying to be the right person.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte


The first time I encountered Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte was back in ninth grade. I had gotten it in a set with Romeo and Juliet, the only major difference being that I actually red Romeo and Juliet, unlike Wuthering Heights. The first time I gave it a try, I was really confused, I only made it a few chapters in. This time, I made it more than halfway, but didn't finish it. It wasn't an easy read for me and maybe one day i'll finish it. It was just so frustrating because I really wanted to get through this and I felt so ridiculous because I couldn't, 

I personally don't think it was the language that was difficult, but more so that it was difficult to follow. I constantly kept mixing up Nelly (the narrator) and Catherine. Then the farther I got into the book, I confused Catherine and her daughter, Catherine. See ! Hard to follow! During the time that I was reading, I kept on thinking of the phrase "All things are delicately interconnected," said by Jenny Holzer. I soon realized that everything and everyone was connected. Made it seem like everything happens for a reason.

I probably only realized that because I read some of it before. Literally everything that happened was full of people either connected by blood, law, marriage, cruel pasts and the search for revenge. It was all so overwhelming. Heathcliff, Catherine, Edgar Linton, Nelly, Lockwood, Catherine (daughter), Hareton, Linton Healthcliff, Hindley and much more.

But I feel that these are the most important, since everything revolves around them. Also, Nelly is immensely important, she's practically the only one who lived to tell the story of love and cruelty. 

I don't know if i'd give it another shot, since it frustrates me so much. But I also want to know what happens. It's just so ridiculous. Like doubles of people, history repeating and it was all such a huge mess. I don't know how I feel about this novel.