Saturday, September 27, 2014

HEART, we will forget him! by Emily Dickinson

 I always find myself drawn to poems regarding love. That's why I immediately went to the love section on Emily Dickinson's poems. She did not disappoint, but I had a hard time selecting one poem. I ended up choosing this specific poem because I felt like it was relevant or in some way relatable to now.

The title alone got me hooked. When I first read the title, I thought this poem was going to be about how she's on the same team with her heart and they have to work together to forget him. I personally think that this poem was written with full on hope on forgetting him, whoever he may be, since we, well I know little about her.When I read the line "You and I, to-night," It made me realize how strongly I felt about being on the same side as your heart and actually "working together" instead of some heart vs mind situation, which is usually the predicament. 

After I read the poem, I still thought that her voice was hopeful. I also thought that there was a hint of sadness in her voice. "You may forget the warmth he gave, I will forget the light," these two lines just... Woah. I like how she worded this. I'm taking this all in and it's like people/significant others really do impact your life. It shows that people still impact your life, even after they're gone. Her heart must play the role in forgetting the warmth he brought into her life, her being, her essence. She must forget the light, the happy and the good he brought into her life. I'm writing this and it actually sounds really depressing.  

It's really easy to think of Emily Dickinson as a strong, independent women. At least for me it was. It was also easy to think that she had an enormously kind/gentle heart. Yet, she had a weakness and it was love. "While you're lagging, I may remember him!" She's convinced she'll forget him, but she knew it wouldn't be easy. It wasn't going to be black and white. She probably remembered him and for some reason that meant everything. 

You know, i'm a big fan of poetry. I haven't been exposed to much of it, just what I stumble upon. But poetry is amazing. Poems about love have always been my all time favorite. Well people, especially grown ups love saying that you don't understand because you're "too young" or "you haven't experienced that yet" or simply that our feelings and opinions are invalid. Yet, with poetry or any form of writing we can interpret a broad topic and make it our own. Make it fit our lives and experiences. That's why it'll stick with us and I just think that being able to do that is amazing. 

Friday, September 19, 2014

Nothing and Everything

I'm going to be completely honest, when I first bought the Catcher in the Rye by J.D Salinger, I had no idea what to expect. I went for it and decided to not judge this novel by it's cover. I do not regret my decision. This book just kinda stuck with me and It'll probably be my all time favorite.

This book caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting an angsty teen that has no idea what he wants to do with his life. I wasn't expecting a teen babbling about nothing and everything. I was prepared to just read this book and forget about. That was until I realized that we are all Holden Caulfield. No denying that.

Right from the start It was easy to tell some basic things about Holden Caulfield. He has a strong personality, opinionated and sees the world as something he really isn't obligated to partake in. It's obvious that Holden doesn't care about much or if he does, it's in a rather offensive way. Holden just doesn't get excited over anything anymore and that's probably your average teen. I'm no doctor, but the novel has this depressing aura around it. Everything is referred to as "lousy," starting on page 3, sentence 1.

Holden Caulfield was greatly written. He's a great character and it's so easy to get caught up in his world. The writing just flows together and I loved that. I thought that I would have had to drag myself through this book, but the fact that that wasn't the case just makes me really excited.

At this point in my life, or at this point in the novel, I find many connections between myself and Holden Caulfield. They way he reacts to things he hates, " Don't even mention them to me," pretty sure I react the same way. It made me realize that it's not uncommon and that a lot of the people in my generation/age range probably react/feel the same way. I'm saying this because Holden Caulfield is a lonely person, he gets ostracized by his team mates and finds it rather funny... At this point in my life, I feel lonely too. I feel like it's me against the world and it's books like these that open up your eyes and show you that many people feel the way, just no one shows it.

I can't get over how Holden sees the world. Not because I don't understand, but because it's so intriguing. While reading, I want to know why he's so forgetful over key things, why he exaggerates so my much, going from committing suicide or something, why he's a great liar. Right now I feel like i'm just rambling, but i'm all over the place with my thoughts on this book. I know one thing though, I loved it.

Holden mentions his love for reading and how he does it quite often. What he said stuck with me. "What really knocks me out is a book that, when you're all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it," I wish I had this opportunity. Not exactly with J. D. Salinger, but with Holden himself. I want to call him and tell him how much I agree with him and how life isn't a game, how we shouldn't have to play by the rules because then we'll all end up like cardboard copies of one another, how vocabulary is important and how it's okay to not be sure of everything. I wish I could tell him how annoying the phrase " act your age," is. People never notice anything and sarcasm is always necessary.

I highly recommend this book to everyone I know. It's an easy read and quite enjoyable. Life isn't exactly the color of roses and at our age, it's confusing. We all have so much things going on, read this book to realize how common it is.

“I'm pretty sure he yelled "Good luck"! at me.I Hope not. I hope to hell not. I'd never yell "Good luck!" at anybody. It sounds terrible, when you think about it”