Sunday, November 9, 2014

Forever may actually be a thing??

This poem goes by the name of " A Mouthful of Forevers, " by the one and only Clementine von Radics. Her writing knows just how to hit the spot and makes it hurt just enough.

Clementine seems to have a sense of realism in her idea of love. Which is something everyone should aspire to have. Maybe, "I am not the first person you loved," says just enough to make any reader want to continue down this path. 

"I think that has to be part of the miracle." Once love wasn't being hunted, it appeared. Love makes everyone think of forever, even if it isn't that long. Love is pain. Love is a mess. Love is everything. But it's never easy.

Yet, she lets the reader know that it is possible to heal. That even though love is messy and painful, it can still be beautiful and everything you've imagined. Affection, honesty, understanding. That's what this means to me. It's like that moment when you finally get to take that deep breathe or when you fall asleep easily. Finally finding that loved one. 

This poem was written with one goal. One sole purpose. I'm not Clementine von Radics, but I firmly believe that she wrote this to let us all know that to love, to be in love, is about accepting the good and bad days. To actually want to make it work. She shows how it's not just about those cute days, but about the days when you need someone and your loved one is there. It's about getting angry at someone and still loving them. It's not even about loving them, it's about actually liking them. 

Sunday, November 2, 2014

you you you

Ian Thomas is the author behind this poem. Ian Thomas is a great example of poetry and how it can mean something to many different people in many different ways. His work shows how a poem doesn't need to rhyme to be a poem. A poem is meaning. Words strung together that evoke so much.

Thomas just says so much in so little. Most of his poems are to a significant other, which most believe is the same person over and over again. The poem comes from the book, "I wrote this for you."

This poem is one of my favorites. Thomas talks about kissing and kissing can be utterly innocent. Something so innocent can occur anywhere at any given time. Think about it. Innocence has the power to end the world.

Kissing that one person you love so much has the power to end the world. It'll either explode with fireworks or explode you in general. A kiss can be fatal, because once it's done, it can't be taken back.

Hello American Feminism

The Awakening by Kate Chopin has quite an interesting title. A title leaning more towards the supernatural, but turns out being nowhere near. This novel was an easy pick. While reading the synopsis, realization hit that reading about women and self empowerment was something worth reading about.

After completing the novel, I decided to look into it more. This novel was based around female sexuality and equality. Which apparently was just spreading around America back in the 1800s/1900s. This can lead any reader to assume the amount of controversy that used to exist regarding this novel. Hello, FEMINISM. It was a big deal back then and it’s a big deal now. "The feminist movement, just beginning to emerge in other parts of America, was almost entirely absent in the conservative state of Louisiana. In fact, under Louisiana law, a woman was still considered the property of her husband. Chopin’s novel was scorned and ostracized for its open discussion of the emotional and sexual needs of women,” this is quite maddening. It’s rather difficult to actually understand how people can be so shocked to a female being sexually aware and independent. Females have choices too, actions and emotions that’ll be acted on. Hello to history repeating itself.

The newer generations seem to be a bit more at ease with The Awakening, yet the whole concept is still an issue. Yet, maybe readers have realized how realistic the views in the novel are. Everyone read this, analyze it and love it. “Themes of patriarchy, marriage and motherhood, woman’s independence, desire, and sexuality both honestly and artistically,” It’s impossible to deny the importance of these themes, it’s impossible to not acknowledge them, especially in this day and time.

The story between Robert and Edna is so intriguing. The way they spent most of the summer together. It mad sense that the more time they spent together the closer they'd end up. As events unfold, it's obvious that this relationship was something much needed for Edna. Robert walking into her life was a moment of self discovery for her. It's as if all the affection and attention directed her way woke her up. It's the type of event that makes one feel alive, unstoppable.

Readers need to realize that although Edna does indeed love Robert, this new found Edna could exist without him. It was about freedom, belonging to herself and answering to no one. While it was a mess of forbidden love, it all changed who Edna was on many different levels. While the novel has a tragic ending, it was worth the read. It was realistic, life doesn't always end in happiness. 

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Dramatic Social Change

There are so many situations going on in this book that I could talk about, but I don't know If I can sit here and write about all of them. Especially when I have this one very specific thing that just makes me want to scream. Obviously, this will probably have something to do with love (probably the most common theme of my blog). 

The Age Of Innocence by Edith Wharton is great. Everyone read it and get frustrated. Please. Unlike the previous book I read, I felt that this one was rather easier to read. I felt anger reading this. If I would have gotten a copy of it and not online version, It would have been chucked against the wall!!! Newland Archer, Countess Ellen Olenska and May Welland.... WHY. Such anger for situations like these.

Basically, to make the story short, this was a typical love triangle set up in Old New York, with it's high class and ever changing social values. Archer and Welland were to be married, but once Olenska came in the picture(Wellands cousin), they fell in love. What. Okay. So, this practically screams forbidden love. So happy that it didn't end up like Romeo & Juliet. Situations like these are so frustrating. Archer was satisfied with Welland, she was enough to keep him content. Yet, when he met Olenska, she was everything. They were in love, but they couldn't be together. 

The way things played out, I couldn't blame Archer for wanting to be with the Countess. The countess was freedom, while Welland was conditioned and practically unable to think on her own. It's like living with a robot. Apply this to actual life and well.. It's really upsetting. To think that people do marry the wrong person and then meet the "one." How does someone deal with that.

This was a short rant. It was meant to be longer, but I can't just repeat myself over and over again. Something that was really upsetting was the ending. Archer didn't visit the countess and said he was content with the memories. He came to peace with it all. That was both upsetting and relieving 

Monday, October 13, 2014

You're Always Alone Because You Choose To Be

This is my first time giving Charles Bukowski a chance. Always heard of him, but I just never got around to reading his work. It wasn't easy picking a poem. Some of his poems frustrated me so much that I refused to keep on reading. Some just didn't really make me feel anything. Poetry is supposed to make the reader feel something and if it doesn't ... What now?

Bukowski did a good job in naming his poems. It was how I ended up selecting this one anyways. Alone with everybody. It's quite intriguing really. I wanted to know more. I wanted to know what he meant and why. My first impression was that it would be about how it doesn't matter how many people you're with or around if you still feel alone. You'd think that having company would make one feel whole, but really, that's not the case. Instead you just feel empty. Bukowski hits where it hurts.

After I read the poem, I realized how depressing it is. How depressing life can be if you let it. How depressing life can be if you're truly alone. "The flesh covers the bone and they put a mind in there and sometimes a soul," this made me think of a few things. In the end we really are just flesh and bones. We all have minds that over complicate things and we're our own obstacles. I don't even know what to make of the soul part. Or maybe I do. Maybe the people with souls are the honest, truthful, loyal ones. While the ones without cheat and play with peoples feelings ? I don't even know what i'm saying right now. I picked this part to talk about because he mentions it later on in the poem, "flesh covers the bone and the flesh searches for more than flesh," this is something big. It's something real too. While people are influenced by beauty, physical connections aren't strong, while actually mental connections, bonding... If you're lucky it'll last a life time. 

He mentions hysterical women and alcoholic men. Which isn't such an odd picture. You don't find the one and one always drowns their sorrows in violence and drinks. At least, that's what's most common. Person after person and be after bed. One hopes to find love, but it's all lust. Lust, lusting after people thinking it's meant to be but it isn't. Think of it this way. "You think you're in love, but really you wanna be loved." I'm just going to leave that right there. 

Firm believer in fate and what not, but we have the power to change how we get to out destiny. So, it's not all written in the stars. Not everyone has the same fate (unless death is the topic of discussion). This seems like a sad way to have lived. "Nobody ever finds the one," what if the one isn't even an actual thing? What if it's actually about two people wanting to be together and wanting to make it work? Everything is immensely temporary. So, yes, you will be empty, but you will will also be filled. Maybe Bukowski spent too much timing trying to find the right person instead of trying to be the right person.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte

The first time I encountered Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte was back in ninth grade. I had gotten it in a set with Romeo and Juliet, the only major difference being that I actually red Romeo and Juliet, unlike Wuthering Heights. The first time I gave it a try, I was really confused, I only made it a few chapters in. This time, I made it more than halfway, but didn't finish it. It wasn't an easy read for me and maybe one day i'll finish it. It was just so frustrating because I really wanted to get through this and I felt so ridiculous because I couldn't, 

I personally don't think it was the language that was difficult, but more so that it was difficult to follow. I constantly kept mixing up Nelly (the narrator) and Catherine. Then the farther I got into the book, I confused Catherine and her daughter, Catherine. See ! Hard to follow! During the time that I was reading, I kept on thinking of the phrase "All things are delicately interconnected," said by Jenny Holzer. I soon realized that everything and everyone was connected. Made it seem like everything happens for a reason.

I probably only realized that because I read some of it before. Literally everything that happened was full of people either connected by blood, law, marriage, cruel pasts and the search for revenge. It was all so overwhelming. Heathcliff, Catherine, Edgar Linton, Nelly, Lockwood, Catherine (daughter), Hareton, Linton Healthcliff, Hindley and much more.

But I feel that these are the most important, since everything revolves around them. Also, Nelly is immensely important, she's practically the only one who lived to tell the story of love and cruelty. 

I don't know if i'd give it another shot, since it frustrates me so much. But I also want to know what happens. It's just so ridiculous. Like doubles of people, history repeating and it was all such a huge mess. I don't know how I feel about this novel. 

Saturday, September 27, 2014

HEART, we will forget him! by Emily Dickinson

 I always find myself drawn to poems regarding love. That's why I immediately went to the love section on Emily Dickinson's poems. She did not disappoint, but I had a hard time selecting one poem. I ended up choosing this specific poem because I felt like it was relevant or in some way relatable to now.

The title alone got me hooked. When I first read the title, I thought this poem was going to be about how she's on the same team with her heart and they have to work together to forget him. I personally think that this poem was written with full on hope on forgetting him, whoever he may be, since we, well I know little about her.When I read the line "You and I, to-night," It made me realize how strongly I felt about being on the same side as your heart and actually "working together" instead of some heart vs mind situation, which is usually the predicament. 

After I read the poem, I still thought that her voice was hopeful. I also thought that there was a hint of sadness in her voice. "You may forget the warmth he gave, I will forget the light," these two lines just... Woah. I like how she worded this. I'm taking this all in and it's like people/significant others really do impact your life. It shows that people still impact your life, even after they're gone. Her heart must play the role in forgetting the warmth he brought into her life, her being, her essence. She must forget the light, the happy and the good he brought into her life. I'm writing this and it actually sounds really depressing.  

It's really easy to think of Emily Dickinson as a strong, independent women. At least for me it was. It was also easy to think that she had an enormously kind/gentle heart. Yet, she had a weakness and it was love. "While you're lagging, I may remember him!" She's convinced she'll forget him, but she knew it wouldn't be easy. It wasn't going to be black and white. She probably remembered him and for some reason that meant everything. 

You know, i'm a big fan of poetry. I haven't been exposed to much of it, just what I stumble upon. But poetry is amazing. Poems about love have always been my all time favorite. Well people, especially grown ups love saying that you don't understand because you're "too young" or "you haven't experienced that yet" or simply that our feelings and opinions are invalid. Yet, with poetry or any form of writing we can interpret a broad topic and make it our own. Make it fit our lives and experiences. That's why it'll stick with us and I just think that being able to do that is amazing. 

Friday, September 19, 2014

Nothing and Everything

I'm going to be completely honest, when I first bought the Catcher in the Rye by J.D Salinger, I had no idea what to expect. I went for it and decided to not judge this novel by it's cover. I do not regret my decision. This book just kinda stuck with me and It'll probably be my all time favorite.

This book caught me off guard. I wasn't expecting an angsty teen that has no idea what he wants to do with his life. I wasn't expecting a teen babbling about nothing and everything. I was prepared to just read this book and forget about. That was until I realized that we are all Holden Caulfield. No denying that.

Right from the start It was easy to tell some basic things about Holden Caulfield. He has a strong personality, opinionated and sees the world as something he really isn't obligated to partake in. It's obvious that Holden doesn't care about much or if he does, it's in a rather offensive way. Holden just doesn't get excited over anything anymore and that's probably your average teen. I'm no doctor, but the novel has this depressing aura around it. Everything is referred to as "lousy," starting on page 3, sentence 1.

Holden Caulfield was greatly written. He's a great character and it's so easy to get caught up in his world. The writing just flows together and I loved that. I thought that I would have had to drag myself through this book, but the fact that that wasn't the case just makes me really excited.

At this point in my life, or at this point in the novel, I find many connections between myself and Holden Caulfield. They way he reacts to things he hates, " Don't even mention them to me," pretty sure I react the same way. It made me realize that it's not uncommon and that a lot of the people in my generation/age range probably react/feel the same way. I'm saying this because Holden Caulfield is a lonely person, he gets ostracized by his team mates and finds it rather funny... At this point in my life, I feel lonely too. I feel like it's me against the world and it's books like these that open up your eyes and show you that many people feel the way, just no one shows it.

I can't get over how Holden sees the world. Not because I don't understand, but because it's so intriguing. While reading, I want to know why he's so forgetful over key things, why he exaggerates so my much, going from committing suicide or something, why he's a great liar. Right now I feel like i'm just rambling, but i'm all over the place with my thoughts on this book. I know one thing though, I loved it.

Holden mentions his love for reading and how he does it quite often. What he said stuck with me. "What really knocks me out is a book that, when you're all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call him up on the phone whenever you felt like it," I wish I had this opportunity. Not exactly with J. D. Salinger, but with Holden himself. I want to call him and tell him how much I agree with him and how life isn't a game, how we shouldn't have to play by the rules because then we'll all end up like cardboard copies of one another, how vocabulary is important and how it's okay to not be sure of everything. I wish I could tell him how annoying the phrase " act your age," is. People never notice anything and sarcasm is always necessary.

I highly recommend this book to everyone I know. It's an easy read and quite enjoyable. Life isn't exactly the color of roses and at our age, it's confusing. We all have so much things going on, read this book to realize how common it is.

“I'm pretty sure he yelled "Good luck"! at me.I Hope not. I hope to hell not. I'd never yell "Good luck!" at anybody. It sounds terrible, when you think about it”